I was just scrolling through some blogs on WordPress and came across the title, “Creating a Successful Midlife Exercise Program”. That is not, however, what my mind read. My mind read, “Creating a Successful Midlife Crisis”. The funny thing is, I stopped scrolling immediately to read it. What does that say about me? Apparently, I’m looking for “successful ways” to have a midlife crisis. At 42 I hardly think I’m at midlife, although I’m sure others would disagree. It’s just hard to imagine that I’m already half way through life considering how quickly the first half passed me by.
Maybe crisis is too strong of a word but lately, I can’t help wondering if there’s more? I’ve been at a job I love for over a decade and I’m really, really good at it. And I’m also kind of pretty bored with it. So, do I settle into it and be thankful I have a job that provides for my family (which I am)? Or do I explore this feeling of wanting more?
Maybe I could be a writer (said half of America). But wait? What if I could be a writer? If the second half of my life goes by as quickly as the first, what would I want it to look like? Do I want people to say, “she was a really good executive assistant”? Or do I want them to say, “hey, did you ever read this? It’s amazing!”.
The problem is the feeling of unfulfillment. Do I seek ways to fill myself up in a positive manner or do I focus on my blessings and MAKING myself feel fulfilled with what I already have? Is fulfillment a feeling instead of an action? Is it a feeling as the result of an action? I have no idea.
Those are the answers I’m seeking as I go through my midlife crisis plight.
Midlife Plight 